confucious says, you con-fused?

“the law is confused”

to which i reply to dear mr hedley, author of a tort text book, that makes two of us. I AM BLOODY CONFUSED.

ok, maybe not bloody confused. but some what so. after reading and reading i only have some what of a picture of what the duty of care is abt. how the HELL am i going to sit for exams in 2 months i have no idea. and this is like one topic of half a paper, of which i have 5.

*sad, pitiful face*

anyywayyys, you knew i was going to whine and blog abt how sad my life is so here goes =)

exams are coming. again.

everytime i think abt tripos all the rainbows in my head disappear and are replaced with scary dark clouds. and lightning.

it HONESTLY really feels like just not long ago i was sitting for my 1st yr papers. and now, here i am, nearly at the end of 2nd year. so jiwangifying. makes me think about what i have accomplished thorughout the year, how i’ve grown/changed, how i’ve gotten to know people better, how the things happen for a reason, what i’ve learnt – about life, about people, about myself.

it is 2009. i’ll be graduating in a yr or so.

that is just so scary, not knowing what will happen to me after.

oh, oh, OH. today i went to the LIBRARY. yay me! i think libraries are good for me. for one, i actually work, evn if i still have an attention span of a goldfish, i get somethings done. ALSO, since there is nth to eat and i have no coins/too lazy to walk to the vending machine, i don’t eat random rubbish the whole day! as is the case when i stay in my room to work. its scary how you just keep eating to procrastinate. really.

so tmr, its back to the library agn.. more work done hopefully. its been 2 wks of hols already. omg. that is scary. can’t recall how i spent my days, except the first 4 days that was spent in italy travelling with my cell members. italy was awesomee. the sun, the gelato and the random posing. although i don’t think i could look at gelato and pasta for sometime to come..

here are some pics!

a group pic of all that went on top the 97.2 m tower that we CLIMBED.

meisheng, wanlin and i at the posh restaurant diane where we had our one’fine-dining’ dinner!

and here, the millionth time we were eating gelato..

and here with all our random drinks at the jazz bar we went to. <3 vodka + oj =)

trip was really fun. good times, getting to everyone better. also, i have decided to be more intellectual from hence forth. everyone says i’m a bimbo. which is kinda depressing if you ask me.  like totally! ok, i’m kidding. i don’t speak like that in real life. i will now only speak of things that matter, like poverty, the credit crunch and WORLD PEACE! haha.

i just realised how i didn’t blog abt anything i did throughout lent. except steal jing’s blog post. hee. will sometime soon post up loads of pics to attempt to potray how lent has been for me. was a trying term, let’s just put it that way. insane amt of sup work for us poor land economist (mad 6 sups a weeks = 6 essays. can’t believe i actually pulled that off), THAT paper 6 project, snow snow snow, snow fights in between lectures, snow fights in the middle of the night, meeting mahathir, co-producing our AWESOME m’night (which i kinda miss now. no more bugging kenrick and watching random practices..), halfway hall (emos), cny ball (still can’t believe i lost chinese chess to a less-than-sober person!), cumsa ball, relinquishing our cumas’s posts, random cookouts in my room, random shopping trips, humbling experience of internship hunting, being an emotional wreck and yet pretending everything’s okay, growing closer to some and then watch some drift away.

8 weeks. rollercoster indeed.

and i remain confused.

oh do you realise how katy perry’s ‘hot and cold’ song is perfect for the weather these days?

“you’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes (rain) and you’re no”

oh yes, you change your mind like a girl changes clothes alright.

and now..

…miley cyrus!

i listen to hannah montana’s songs! and actually like them!

my 9 year old neighbour likes hannah montana.

*faints*

ok. enough about my childish taste in music. revolting.

anyways, she’s probly going to kill me for this, but here’s amanda! tai tai #1!

and this is tai tai #2, aunty lilian.

and this is audrey teo! singing her heart out.

and this are the two mad-est, weird-est and yet cool-est ppl you’ll ever meet! =) beatrix hii and eva!

(psst, trix, eva.. i think we need to LAY OFF the seafood. it makes us, well. not so normal xD)

and this picture looks too normal,lah.

eileen, my beloved ex-housemate/roomate/girl-whose-slippers-broke-due-to-cockroach-chasing (meaning cockroaches chasing us rather than the other way round!) bullying me. as per usual.

ok, i’m going to get killed by everyone.

but hey.. i’m making a nice tribute to all of you cos you are leaving/have left! leaving poor me in kuching all by myself.

so sad.

its that time of the year again. leaving home season.

i do still have one month tho.

will be relatively busy i suppose. there’s us open to watch! to ease the olympics withdrawal symptoms =)

ooh, go watch this. nadal is so cute and funny. mcenroe is hilarious!

pictures galore!

so here are the pictures of things i have been up to as of late.

me and the lawyers taking a nice ’stroll’ to granchester.

the nutters =)

us land economist at the department garden party

friday the 13th, cumsa bop

us msian 1st years at cumas garden party

the only picture with the 4 of us in amsterdam

poser leong, doing what he does the best =)

making fool out of ourselves.

for the record, he did this on his own accord xD

random hat in some random store

xD

punting when wei hehn came to cambridge. like totally awesomme.

dinner at teri-aki

eva and i jakun-ing in tube stations.

ok, i think that’s enough embarassing photos for one day.

hope you had fun =)

fellow foochow!

HALO MISS LAU!

YES THAT’S YOU, EILEEN.

YOU SHOULD BE VERY WORRIED ABT ME RIGHT NOW.

GOING TO START JUMPING ON CHAIRS.

HAHA.

andistillcan’trememberanything.

andmypanickingstarts3hoursaheadofschedule.

ooh.

how?how?how?

you should now what to do since i quote, “now you know how i feel! during a-levels, so stressed, and then see you sitting there so happy, listening to music”

i’m lyk living your life, delayed =)

so when is my stubborn biatchy person coming along?

and then my love for old football managers.

=)

be touched, a whole post abt you,mannn.

of statistics and surprises.

i have been staring at statistical data for way too long.

ok, not that long, but still.

the numbers are annoying me!

grr.

and i kept making stupid mistakes while ‘calculating’ the multiple regression on excel, and had to really do ‘multiple’ regressions.

ok, bad pun..i’m sorry, but this is what too much numbers do to me.

yes, there are too much, i can’t count them anymore!

=(

so, if you were wondering what i was waffling abt the last few minutes, its basically abt my AWESOME-LY EXCITING  (i’m trying the whole reverse psychology thing on myself) project that is due wednesday.. which i AM going to finish tonight.

by hook or by crook, be it involving massive intakes of caffeine and no sleep, i am going to get it done.

i’m repeating this so everyone knows and so, now YOU hold me accountable.

=)

ooh.. jing ting beckons. smth abt an injured eye.

ahh.

shall be back, with more project fun!

*edit*

i’m back!

sigh.

this stupid regression model is not making any sense to me, and frankly right now i don’t really care, and just want to get it over and done with. its annoying! what a surprise, huh?

and speaking of surprises, had fun over the weekend surprising not one, but two people for their respective birthdays!

given, neither of them actually really seemed surprised, and wei yang ruined his surprise by being a dungu..but it was all still fun.

from baking the cake for david and hiding wanlin when she was taking out the cake ‘in front’ of the him during cg dinner to the last minute ‘change of plans’ and stalling with random bits of conversation.

and for once, i actually didn’t have my camera with me, hence no pictures =(

my ‘5 megapixel’ hp camera is SO NOT 5 mp. 

lg lied to me.

pictures are super grainy, but i’ll put them up once i find my hp cable amidst the mess my room is currently in.

*mummy, you really don’t want to see it, or imagine how my room might look like xD*

on the up side, today’s p4 supervision is the FIRST time i actually felt like i knew what i was doing/enjoyed myself during a p4 supervision. 

its a bit late in the year to finally find supervisions ‘enjoyable’ but hey, better late than never, i say.

and also, completely random, but the sun annoys me.

its 8 pm and the sun is shining like nobody’s business. bah.

anyhoos, enough procrastinating, i shall get back to my project, or i’ll be dead during my ‘marathon’ 3 hr lecture day.

 

 

 

 

 

oh the tricks my mind plays on me.

as logical as i usually am, sometimes i just want to whack myself with a stick.

and sometimes, i wonder, why?

seriously.

why do i put myself in such situations…

…on the bright side, i have stop reporting abt completed essays.

yay.

anyhoos, formal last night at homerton was somewhat enjoyable.

was the first time i sat on a bus in cambridge, the first time i’ve been that far south too, for that matter.

here are some random pictures of the night :

random picture of the dining table

nicholas with his ‘pennied’ dessert.

me, jings and patrick

the christ posers + jing ting

me, khai xiang and wei yang

post formal footie watching at the homerton bar. mu v barca! 1-0! awesoommmeee =)

…. back to me being ‘emo’

maybe its the stress that is getting to me, the random nonsense i have to read everyday, the insane amt of supervision work that never seems to go away, and the fact that tripos is less than a month…

who knows.

jiwang-ness with a capital J

i am seriously so sien. and depressed. and jiwang. for no apparent reason.

ok, maybe there is a correlation between me having loads of work and me getting depressed.

the last time i felt like this was when i had that stupid ‘uber exciting’ retail development project on the Grand Arcade and Christ Lane (which i am still boy cotting. hah! i can still shop at lion’s yard/grafton!)

…saya harap orang yang ber-mark saya punya projek tidak baca ini. nanti saya mati.

i don’t want to do work anymore.

i want to just sleep and sleep and sleep and not have to use my brain for anything.

well, maybe to watch phua chu kang on youtube, but other than that, no.

pre-term blues?

oh, my exam time table is out, exams start for me on the 23rd, with papers on the 26, 27 and last one on the 28.

which means i can actually ‘celebrate’ me turning 20. wooo.

except i won’t have anyone to celebrate it with, since everyone is still having their exams.

well, except us land economist that is.

i seriously need to study for tripos, but keep getting stupid supervision work in my inbox.

ughh.

and there’s still THAT stats project *which i really should have done over the holidays*

sigh.

how to study when i keep having to churn out essays like an essay factory?!?!

joanne says i complain to much.

maybe i do.

and i shouldn’t.

workworkwork.

ok, shall stop procrastinating and will go write that paper 4 essay on smth abt sustainable development.

agn.

ugh.

i want to go shopping.

wait, correction.

i NEED to go shopping, less i drive myself crazy.

ok, i shall reward myself by going shopping once i’ve finished my 2 essays and stats project.

sounds like a good deal.

anyhoos, went out for lunch to celebrate zhongshan’s 21st with the other liars, i mean LAWYERS and nicholas.

i (heart) green curry!

…anyways…

shall post up some random pics.

zhongshan

nicholas

wei yang

me

jordan

and since the photographer, ms yong doesn’t have a ‘personal’ picture, i have to put up the only picture of her, which *coincidentaly* has me in it! =)

okays, now really, back to work.

a little something

got this song from wanlin. learnt it during word alive, and despite it being wayyyy over sang in our caravan (basically, every two seconds, you’ll hear someone go “oh, no you never let go”) i think it is an amazing song which really reminds me everytime i whine abt things, that God is ALWAYS with me.

here are the lyrics :

You Never Let Go by Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

love this song. has been playing on itunes over and and over agn. on loop =)

especially the chorus. God will NEVER let go. can never be reiterated too many times, me thinks XD

anyways, has been a busy weekend, what with the picnic and the post grad dinner thing.

but both events were good. the picnic was fun! especially twister.

and thank God for the weather. NO RAIN!

and also for green curry at the post grad cookout.

ooh. just as i was craving green curry =)

pretty sick of making/looking at wantons tho. won’t be eating it for quite awhile. spent 1 and a half hours standing by my rice cooker making them.

tirreddd.

but have been eating way too much today. so bad. i shall ‘detox’ tmr. since i have no food left in my fridge, to the dome and the salad bar it shall be!

and now, here’s to my 5th econs ‘essay’ of the day. gosh, i love my supervisors.

“5. Do not expect to find a good restaurant in a tourist town. Why or why not?”

this is the actual question. seriously.

i should include personal examples and pictures of our paella in barca.

lol.

i’m sure i’ll get a first for that =)

Word Alive, Pwlleheli 2008

Just got back from pwlleheli, wales.

its pronounced as pufh-hweli.

actually, i have no idea how to say it.

anyways, i had an awesome time at word alive. and in case you were wondering what word alive is…well.. its basically a Christian camp, where we stay in caravans, and go for talks and seminars all day long!

for more information, and if you are worried that i’ve been attending some crazy hippie gathering in caravans, here’s the website of the event!

http://www.newwordalive.org/

it was just so amazing to be able to spend 5 days (not studying, but that’s besides the point) just listening to God’s word, and enjoying His amazing grace.

and not to mention all the caravan antics. baking, cooking (the chickens!), playing bridge till the wee hours of the morning, guitar teaching sessions, making fun of certain caravan members…

uber fun.

i’m a bit sleep deprived at the moment, so i shall leave the nitty gritty details (and photos) for another day =)

my room sounds a bit too quiet without everyone around, and the sounds of four guitars playing simultaneously (but all different songs at each given time)

but, i shall have to sleep, and tomorrow..its back to mugging.

sigh.

isocosts, here i come.

Ooohh. Aaaah. Waahhh.

You know how sad i have been?

in a total of 6 days, i have left newhall twice.

ooh.

my longest record of staying only in newhall, is 4 days.

straight.

when i’m in newhall, my daily journeys include walks to jings room, which is two staircases away and the occasional walk to ’study’ in the jcr. also, when i’m feeling hardworking and particularly energetic, i take a loooonnnnnnggggg walk to the porter’s lodge to check if i’ve got any mail. its so exciting, i can’t contain my excitement!

seriously.

sad case.

at last, yesterday i decided that it was time to GET OUT.

So the three of us went to makan at nando’s before ’sending’ jings of to london.

that woman, cra-zee.

acting as if she will be gone forever and ever.

but admitedly so, new hall is very different *cough*quiet*cough* without her around.

and when i said to nicholas that its so weird without jings around, he shook his head and said,”I have no idea how you guys are going to last through summer”

ah, well.

anyways, i really should get out more often, before i go crazy and come easter term, i’ll be a social recluse.

and, i just realised that i haven’t talk to anyone either than jings or nicks for a long time.

oh, and here are some random pictures of the term that was.

jo and i when she came to cambs, and here we are with the awesome briyani that we cooked!

when eva and trix came down to cambs. this is taken somewhere in trinity college.

part of the cast and crew after malaysian night.

L-R : chun yiao, jordan, zhong shan, yu shan, khai xiang, nicholas, daniel, bernard, me, jun kai, jing ting, wei yang, andrew

okaayy, my labelling is pretty bad o_0

the celebratory m’night formal at pembroke. the dancers and the instructor!

L-R : jun kai, khai xiang, bernard, wei yang, chern leing, me, alex

(seated) yu shan, wee vien, jing ting, nicholas

and the international formal at churchill

the land economy ‘field trip’ to london. where we spent 4 hours in the bus from cambs to london. madness.

jings and i when we went down to london for ic’s m’night. jakun-ing in the tube station. uber touristy!

our cny eve cook-out

L-R : ian tang, nicholas, wei yang, zhong shan, patrick, jing ting

the flower that jings gave me for v’day. altho it came two days later =)

okays, i should go get some productive studying done now.

wish me luck!