confucious says, you con-fused?

27 03 2009

“the law is confused”

to which i reply to dear mr hedley, author of a tort text book, that makes two of us. I AM BLOODY CONFUSED.

ok, maybe not bloody confused. but some what so. after reading and reading i only have some what of a picture of what the duty of care is abt. how the HELL am i going to sit for exams in 2 months i have no idea. and this is like one topic of half a paper, of which i have 5.

*sad, pitiful face*

anyywayyys, you knew i was going to whine and blog abt how sad my life is so here goes =)

exams are coming. again.

everytime i think abt tripos all the rainbows in my head disappear and are replaced with scary dark clouds. and lightning.

it HONESTLY really feels like just not long ago i was sitting for my 1st yr papers. and now, here i am, nearly at the end of 2nd year. so jiwangifying. makes me think about what i have accomplished thorughout the year, how i’ve grown/changed, how i’ve gotten to know people better, how the things happen for a reason, what i’ve learnt – about life, about people, about myself.

it is 2009. i’ll be graduating in a yr or so.

that is just so scary, not knowing what will happen to me after.

oh, oh, OH. today i went to the LIBRARY. yay me! i think libraries are good for me. for one, i actually work, evn if i still have an attention span of a goldfish, i get somethings done. ALSO, since there is nth to eat and i have no coins/too lazy to walk to the vending machine, i don’t eat random rubbish the whole day! as is the case when i stay in my room to work. its scary how you just keep eating to procrastinate. really.

so tmr, its back to the library agn.. more work done hopefully. its been 2 wks of hols already. omg. that is scary. can’t recall how i spent my days, except the first 4 days that was spent in italy travelling with my cell members. italy was awesomee. the sun, the gelato and the random posing. although i don’t think i could look at gelato and pasta for sometime to come..

here are some pics!

group pic

a group pic of all that went on top the 97.2 m tower that we CLIMBED.

dinner

meisheng, wanlin and i at the posh restaurant diane where we had our one’fine-dining’ dinner!

gelato!

and here, the millionth time we were eating gelato..

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and here with all our random drinks at the jazz bar we went to. <3 vodka + oj =)

trip was really fun. good times, getting to everyone better. also, i have decided to be more intellectual from hence forth. everyone says i’m a bimbo. which is kinda depressing if you ask me.  like totally! ok, i’m kidding. i don’t speak like that in real life. i will now only speak of things that matter, like poverty, the credit crunch and WORLD PEACE! haha.

i just realised how i didn’t blog abt anything i did throughout lent. except steal jing’s blog post. hee. will sometime soon post up loads of pics to attempt to potray how lent has been for me. was a trying term, let’s just put it that way. insane amt of sup work for us poor land economist (mad 6 sups a weeks = 6 essays. can’t believe i actually pulled that off), THAT paper 6 project, snow snow snow, snow fights in between lectures, snow fights in the middle of the night, meeting mahathir, co-producing our AWESOME m’night (which i kinda miss now. no more bugging kenrick and watching random practices..), halfway hall (emos), cny ball (still can’t believe i lost chinese chess to a less-than-sober person!), cumsa ball, relinquishing our cumas’s posts, random cookouts in my room, random shopping trips, humbling experience of internship hunting, being an emotional wreck and yet pretending everything’s okay, growing closer to some and then watch some drift away.

8 weeks. rollercoster indeed.

and i remain confused.

oh do you realise how katy perry’s ‘hot and cold’ song is perfect for the weather these days?

“you’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes (rain) and you’re no”

oh yes, you change your mind like a girl changes clothes alright.





because i don’t want to work.

20 05 2008

i want to procrastinate.

so let me.

also my brain is disintegrating as we speak, too much accounting in one day.

i swear, trial balances are a pain in the ass.

grr.

i spent the whole night doing two question. and my brain is wayyy fried.

so i started doing what i do best, go online and do random stuff.

then, it dawned upon me that tmr is THE BIG DAY!

no, not my exams, i’ll be super freaking out if exams were tmr.

its the champions league final : THE champions vs Chelsea (pfft..)

here’s a nice poster which SCREAMS CHAMPIONS. i mean, like literally.

and here is THE MAN to lead us to our second trophy of the season.

champions of champions,mannn.

i’m super sad, cos i can’t watch the match (i suppose soccernet will have to suffice), on the account that it’ll be ACADEMIC SUICIDE for me to go watch football, two days before doomsday.

speaking of which, i have adopted a come what may attitude now.

i -honestly- can’t be bothered anymore and just want to not have to study anymore!

like whatever! who cares about tripos! not me!

(okay, i lied, i still care abt my exams, and will, despite how much i long to not to, go and study)

i hate that i’m so logical.

=(

btw, listening to nonsensical songs like ‘low’ by flo rida,  ‘4 minutes’ by madonna/justin timberlake/timberland and angry rocker chick songs like – ‘runaway’ by avril lavinge, ‘when it all falls apart’ by the veronicas seems to aid the process and pain of doing nonsensical, wait, i mean, EXTREMELY EXCITING and COMPLETELY RELEVANT work. uhuh.

oh, and despite my best intentions, i HAD to watch the latest gossip girl episode.

so sad, dan and serena broke up!

heart broken!

and in a twisted way, i kinda like chuck and blair together.

wait, why am i watching gossip girl?

i’m suppose to be ‘intelligent-cambridge-student’ not ‘avid-bimbo-show-watcher’.

i guess a year in uni didn’t actually change my intellectual levels.

i’ll take cleo over the economist any day!

(and also e! over bloomberg, thank yoouuu)

now, this un-intellectual girl is going to put on her intellectual face, pretend to be smart, and do past year tripos questions.

yeaps. enough bumming arnd, time to get back to my lovely and uber inspiring work (yes, i’m still trying the whole positive re-enforcement thing on myself)

you know you love me

XOXO (ala THE gossip girl)

(i figured if i can’t act smart, i might as well act stupid)





studying. oh, yeah.

10 05 2008

studying in libraries make me sleepy/lethargic for the rest of the day. and also makes me depressed.

but i get work done. for that 3 hours or so.

i should do a cba on whether libraries are good for me.





and (surprise!) another!

26 04 2008

hah.

finally completed the essay on sustainable development.

so happy =)

now i can go ’sleep in peace’ without feeling guilty for not being productive.

it seems my blog has turned into an essay completion reporting centre.

i am such a sad person with no life.





jiwang-ness with a capital J

23 04 2008

i am seriously so sien. and depressed. and jiwang. for no apparent reason.

ok, maybe there is a correlation between me having loads of work and me getting depressed.

the last time i felt like this was when i had that stupid ‘uber exciting’ retail development project on the Grand Arcade and Christ Lane (which i am still boy cotting. hah! i can still shop at lion’s yard/grafton!)

…saya harap orang yang ber-mark saya punya projek tidak baca ini. nanti saya mati.

i don’t want to do work anymore.

i want to just sleep and sleep and sleep and not have to use my brain for anything.

well, maybe to watch phua chu kang on youtube, but other than that, no.

pre-term blues?

oh, my exam time table is out, exams start for me on the 23rd, with papers on the 26, 27 and last one on the 28.

which means i can actually ‘celebrate’ me turning 20. wooo.

except i won’t have anyone to celebrate it with, since everyone is still having their exams.

well, except us land economist that is.

i seriously need to study for tripos, but keep getting stupid supervision work in my inbox.

ughh.

and there’s still THAT stats project *which i really should have done over the holidays*

sigh.

how to study when i keep having to churn out essays like an essay factory?!?!

joanne says i complain to much.

maybe i do.

and i shouldn’t.

workworkwork.

ok, shall stop procrastinating and will go write that paper 4 essay on smth abt sustainable development.

agn.

ugh.

i want to go shopping.

wait, correction.

i NEED to go shopping, less i drive myself crazy.

ok, i shall reward myself by going shopping once i’ve finished my 2 essays and stats project.

sounds like a good deal.

anyhoos, went out for lunch to celebrate zhongshan’s 21st with the other liars, i mean LAWYERS and nicholas.

i (heart) green curry!

…anyways…

shall post up some random pics.

zhongshan

nicholas

wei yang

me

jordan

and since the photographer, ms yong doesn’t have a ‘personal’ picture, i have to put up the only picture of her, which *coincidentaly* has me in it! =)

okays, now really, back to work.





ahhhhh..

23 04 2008

i habis my econs work for thursday!

finally!

since i’m on a roll, its on to my law essay.

and then law supervision work.

i can so do this.

oh yeah.

ooh, and i made chicken rice just now! its was really good considering i just ‘agak-agak’ and dumped things i thought chicken rice was made out of. haha.

jings said it was good too, so i’m not being bias.

back to work!

i swear i will stop watching phua chu kang on youtube.





a little something

20 04 2008

got this song from wanlin. learnt it during word alive, and despite it being wayyyy over sang in our caravan (basically, every two seconds, you’ll hear someone go “oh, no you never let go”) i think it is an amazing song which really reminds me everytime i whine abt things, that God is ALWAYS with me.

here are the lyrics :

You Never Let Go by Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

love this song. has been playing on itunes over and and over agn. on loop =)

especially the chorus. God will NEVER let go. can never be reiterated too many times, me thinks XD

anyways, has been a busy weekend, what with the picnic and the post grad dinner thing.

but both events were good. the picnic was fun! especially twister.

and thank God for the weather. NO RAIN!

and also for green curry at the post grad cookout.

ooh. just as i was craving green curry =)

pretty sick of making/looking at wantons tho. won’t be eating it for quite awhile. spent 1 and a half hours standing by my rice cooker making them.

tirreddd.

but have been eating way too much today. so bad. i shall ‘detox’ tmr. since i have no food left in my fridge, to the dome and the salad bar it shall be!

and now, here’s to my 5th econs ‘essay’ of the day. gosh, i love my supervisors.

“5. Do not expect to find a good restaurant in a tourist town. Why or why not?”

this is the actual question. seriously.

i should include personal examples and pictures of our paella in barca.

lol.

i’m sure i’ll get a first for that =)





*hyperventilates*

18 04 2008

i.can’t.breathe.

term starts thursday, and i am all but ready to begin easter term.

aghhs.

first of all, i’ve barely put a dent in my revision for exams, only finished the work for paper 1, and did a bit for paper 2 (which i barely remember right now)

secondly, i haven’t touced my stats project. or my two ‘holiday’ essays for that matter.

thirdly, i just realised that i have a law sup on this coming friday which i have to prepare for.

fourthly, i have no idea how to do accounts. and i was supposed to work at it OVER THE HOLIDAYS.

and lastly, i just got an email from my econs supervisor with work for 4 sups in the next three weeks, the first one being this thursday, meaning I HAVE TO START WORK.

and this is just for ONE paper.

omg, someone kill me already.

gahh.

i want to cry =(





economics 101

15 04 2008

the greek letter T, tau rhymes with “wow”

if we are willing to rule out ‘kinky tastes’, we can forget about the example given in figure 5.2 *

* otherwise this book might get an R rating

i swear, this was what i read in my economics book.

don’t believe me? go look up varian, pg 27 and 190 respectively.

the guy is just hilarious.

and this has been the highlight of my day.

woo!

exciting isn’t it.

i predict that cooping myself up and what with this ‘hard core’ studying, i will go crazy by thursday.

hence i have to go out on thursday.

even be it wondering arnd town by myself.

i think i have reached my limit for today.

i started reading abt the law of demand (which is like the basic-est of the basic) which states that “if a demand for a good increases when income increase, then the demand for that good must decrease when its price increase”.

simple right?

except i kept reading it as “if a demand for a good increases when income increase, then the demand for that good must decrease when its price decrease“.

and i kept thinking to myself, “this doesn’t make any sense! but varian can’t be lying to me!”

10 minutes or so later after re-re-re-re-reading and pondering, i finally read the right thing.

good grief, i am such an idiot.

how the hell am i going to sit for tripos?

anyways, mu went 5 points clear!

woohoo!

i love heskey for that awesome late minute goal!

and also, ronaldo for that superbly taken penalty! twice!

yupss. this awesome ronaldo.

we are so going to win the championship.

oh, yeah.. and before i get more distracted by ronaldo. here are some pics of wales when i went there for word alive!

view from the train

a picture of the caravan that we stayed in. well, this wasn’t the exact one, but it looked exactly the same!

inside the grand marquee where the main talks and celebrations are held.

people in the our caravan

me being emo.

the traditional “after word alive lunch” at gbk

yups, lazy to post more,la.

besides i have to run off to cook.

toodles!





Word Alive, Pwlleheli 2008

11 04 2008

Just got back from pwlleheli, wales.

its pronounced as pufh-hweli.

actually, i have no idea how to say it.

anyways, i had an awesome time at word alive. and in case you were wondering what word alive is…well.. its basically a Christian camp, where we stay in caravans, and go for talks and seminars all day long!

for more information, and if you are worried that i’ve been attending some crazy hippie gathering in caravans, here’s the website of the event!

http://www.newwordalive.org/

it was just so amazing to be able to spend 5 days (not studying, but that’s besides the point) just listening to God’s word, and enjoying His amazing grace.

and not to mention all the caravan antics. baking, cooking (the chickens!), playing bridge till the wee hours of the morning, guitar teaching sessions, making fun of certain caravan members…

uber fun.

i’m a bit sleep deprived at the moment, so i shall leave the nitty gritty details (and photos) for another day =)

my room sounds a bit too quiet without everyone around, and the sounds of four guitars playing simultaneously (but all different songs at each given time)

but, i shall have to sleep, and tomorrow..its back to mugging.

sigh.

isocosts, here i come.