work? word.

cny is coming! and oh the skies and grey.

what extreme juxtapositions.

feeling particularly emofied today. i think its the weather *glares at grey clouds and rain* and also the fact that i need, need, need to start writing essays today. and also the fact that i’m worried abt vac schemes. sigh. so lame.

but aniwaehs! i shall plunge head first into my pile of work with a smile on my face *plasters forced fake smile* just beacuse. a happy worker is a good worker! (ok, i made that up, but it sounded cool right?)

actually i think i’m just rambling abt nonsense right now and should stop, but i can’t! I JUST CAN’T..

so, its 8.07 am on a friday which i don’t have lectures to attend. tell me again why i’m awake when i could be curled up under my duvet asleep? boo =(

so, lets evaluate my week. sunday was mad day, involving much bitchiness, hate and pain. yes, last day to finish my p6 project and last last minute when i thought i was all done, i spotted a mistake. a fundamental, core part of the project so had to change almost everything. nearly died. and felt like tossing my mac out the window cos it was being bitchy with me. hmph.

that was sunday, barely slept and somehow had the energy to roll out of bed for my 10 am lecture. and to hand in (finally!) my project. then after lectures was shopping! got this lovely jacket tht was cheap too! made me very happyyyy.

tuesday, was watching frost/nixon with jings, nicks and harold since jings was very ‘resourceful’ (to quote many) and gt us free tickets! i love free things! =) so even though i had no idea what the movie was about, neither was it one of my must-watch-shows (SHOPAHOLIC!! HAVE. TO. WATCH.) i happily trooped down to grafton in the cold to catch the free movie. and at the end of it, i still didn’t know what the watergate scandal was -_- but now i do! thanks to go old wiki!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Watergate_scandal

other than that, my days have involved much staring into space wondering what i should do with my life and attempting to do some reading. and i will get a decent amount of work done today. no being stupid and wasting time. study study study. supervisions, here i come prepared!

yes, at least i have smth (s) to look forward to – cumas cny dinner, cny eve cookout, cny ball. oooh so happening huh? =)

grey clouds

i need to sort my life out. pronto.

term has barely started and i’m already in the “idon’tcareaboutsupervisionsandidon’twanttodowork” stage.

this is bad.

feeling a bit messed up. but no fear. after i’m done with my project.. i shall embark on this awesfully awesome soul searching journey, hopefully including me finding my inner nerd.

yes.

*to inner nerd* come out, come out wherever to you are!

21 things i learnt today.

1. eating two pieces of fried cempedak is well worth the 30 minutes on the treadmill.

2. in fact, i’d eat four and run for an hr!

3. okay, maybe not.

4. the battle between the tv and calculating my portfolio’s risk is an easy one. the tv always wins. hands down.

5. doing wrk/being assigned wrk during the holidays should be against ones human rights. hmph.

6. besides, there’s no quality in holiday work! hello..profesor di cambridge yang bijaksana ini patut tahu perkara yang basic macam ini,lah.

7. i rather read pages and pages of contract law rather than do my finance project which is far more urgent.

8. i think i may be a masochist. torturing myself by leaving my project super last minute and then i panick and hyperventilate and need to go to jingy for counselling.

9. i have an obsession with bags. i think, no more.

10. massages aren’t fun if the masseuse starts slapping you. like literally.

11. i have too many things to do and not enough time. help.

12. ppl in kuching are mng crazed. buy until there’s nothing left on the table shelf thingy. madness.

13. i can actually shop in kuching. love love love my buys!

14. i get very annoyed when ppl don’t answer my calls. or reply my txts. but more so to calls. although i am constantly doing it to other ppl. i’m sorry. i shall keep my phone with me at all times from now on and always answer all calls/reply all txts unless of course i’m stuck in this ‘oh-so-awesome-and-scintilating’ lecture (nt likely to happen anytime soon)

15.  boys are vainer than girls. or at least more health concious. count of guys in swak club gym this afternoon – 7. count of girls – 1, me.

16. i can’t decide if i can’t wait to go back to cambridge or don’t want to leave home.

17. i love sunday market! all the random food that you get there. i want to eat gigantic blue prawns! yes they do exist.

18. i’m really, deep down inside an antisocial being. oh no. what has cambridge done to me. and all of its other inhabitants for that matter. (does antisocialness ring a bell jing? XD)

19.speaking of which, oh, i love jing and nicks! honestly! they rock my socks! (if i were wearing any that is. its too hot to cover my feet up!)  from helping me drag my bag down to getting me one to taking care of my duvet =)

20. eileen loves me. are you happy now miss lau i don’t crave kfc no more (and i’ve updated my blog with utter nonsense?)

21. christmas leftovers are no fun the 5th time round.

best, better, bestest?

i have a craving for kfc.

and its 1.07

in the morning.

=(

on the upside, i’m feeling a lot less ‘angry’ and annoyed at stuff in general after sharing in cg =)

i guess i just need to find my place in life, and what God wants me to do.

anyways, GRACE IS GOING TO BE SUPER KUAI TMR AND ACTUALLY STUDY.

instead of doing random nonsense like what her saturdays have always been made up of.

life. death. love. hate.

oh, the extremities.

how odd it is to be so happy at one moment, and then an hour later, you feel like strangling everything in sight.

i think i *MIGHT* have anger management issues.

either that or i’m just one hormonal being.

although, *quote eileen*, being 20, our hormones are supposed to be stable.

but there must be something wrong with you when you don’t feel like seeing anybody at all, and the thought of talking to people makes you so sick.

and you even contemplate going for the early, early church service so you won’t see anyone.

this is so not me.

the stress of supervisions and internship apps are just starting to take its toll on me.

so, maybe i should have listen to ji’s advice and did my research and application crap over summer instead of lazing around and watching stupid shows on hbo everyday.

thus, due to the events (or lack thereof) of the past few days, i have decided to go back over winter.

i think if i stay in cambridge for the 5 weeks break, i will be like a candle with no wax left.

READ : BURNT OUT.

now, i just have to get my ticket.

and i can’t decide to go for mas or emirates.

i hate transits, but i get to save 200 pounds (whichmeans200poundsmoreformetospendonnonsense)

so. CBA perhaps?

…

…

…

is it too much for me to just be HAPPY?

i don’t get it.

the story of my candied apple

this is my candied apple.

this is me, eating my candied apple.

and this is still me, eating my candied apple.

bye bye candied apple.

…

its week 5.

i’m ALLOWED to be narcissistic.

i’m ALLOWED to be as mood-swingy as i want.

i’m ALLOWED to throw mini tantrums, and then blame it on the fact that it is week 5 and i’m suffering from a severe case of week 5 blues.

except.

i’m nt feeling very blue yet.

i think it the overdose of sugar last night from my cotton candy.

oh, yeah. i bought cotton candy at the guy fawkes fun fair, and ate it all to keep me awake while doing my essay, into the wee hours of the morning.

yes. last minute as usual.

my lack of sleep + too much sugar made my brain like literally go dead during my finance supervision just now.

luckily, my work was decent and the supervisor didn’t kill me when i just stared blankly at him when he asked me what the formula for growth was.

like LITERALLY stared blankly.

stupid moment of the week.

oh dear, week 5 is near!

ok, bad attempt at rhyming.

anyways, free week over, hark the arrival of busy week where youtube/sidereel will be seeing a lot less of me and word/wikipedia will be seeing a lot more of me.

i have an essay due tmr, and i’ve just started.

oh bad grace.

what have you been doing the whole week?

GOOD QUESTION.

the week, like most, started of relatively well, with me writing my cv and starting my internship apps.

and the remainder of the week was, well, to put it nicely, not as efficiently spent. in fact, if we were to test it for efficiency, Mr. Pareto would roll in his grave.

ah wells. i shall just have to suffer this week i suppose.

OH. I’M EXCITED ABT GUY FAWKES DAY! for reasons that are not known to me either, but hey. something to look forward to =)

remember, remember, the 5th of November.

on a completely random note (as usual), i’m sick. again. i feel as if the cold wind has entered my lungs and won’t come out. ugh.

(and i still hold fast to the fact that getting a jab wouldn’t have prevented my sickness. twice)

what a catastrophe

CLICK THIS

and you’ll see what i mean by catastrophe.

…

ok, i can’t keep it in any longer.

MU IS BELOW HULL, LIKE OMG?!

seriously.

how on earth can hull be 3rd in the premier league?

this shows how out of touch i have been with the world, i haven’t evn been following the epl.

how appalling right?

and EWW. chelsea is top.

EWW.

oh, hi KEVIN LAU.

is this less depressing? XD

anyways, my mad week has come to an end.

and i want to go watch hsm 3.

so EXCITED!

=)

and i need my internet to work. NEED TO STREAM GOSSIP GIRL.

I”M SO LEFT BEHIND.

oh, what a catastrophe.

a moment of silence

let’s all have a moment of silence as the weekend comes to an end.

boo.

so sad.

its back to lectures.

i’ve spent the ‘whole’ of today reading abt regional unemployment disparities. (from the OXFORD handbook of economic geography some more!)

basically what i’ve learnt today is… i must get a job so i won’t be unemployed.

yes. simple enough.

i have dedicated next week as ‘Grace’s job hunting week/Grace’s attempts at looking for a career’ cos i’ve only got satu supervision next week.

yes, meaning i have 4 this week.

well, work for 1 and a half done.

that’s good right?

=(

no….

so much more work =(

i think i had too much fun over the weekends.

what a glorious day

today was my ‘no lecture’ day. how awesome.

unfortunately it had to start with some idiot setting off the fire alarm at 4 am. idiots. people who set fire alarms off for no apparent reason should be set on fire.

and no, i do not have violent tendencies or rage issues.

but anyhows, no lecture day is always fun. today i decided to be good and head down to town to buy books.

how intellectual right?

buying books and all. i can hardly contain my excitement.

i spent 100 pounds or so buying the things that bring me the most pain in the whole world.

wait, actually supervision work brings me the most pain see how its the work that makes me need to read the books right?

ok, i don’t know whats wrong with me today, i think i have somewhat lost my mind.

(yes, i did have one to begin with, contrary to popular belief)

OH!

and a bought a really pretty planner, so now i’m going to be superly organized.

its pink and has flowers =)

i was tempted to get the hsm planner, but i thought it might have been a tad riduculous for a 20 yr old to be carrying arnd a planner filled with supervision dates and DEADlines (haha. geddit? geddit?) that has zac efron on it.

but yeah. i realised that my supervisions are really skewed. one week i have 4 and the other 1. so basically on the 4 weeks (which is next week) i’ll be a half dead woman.

sigh. i guess as much work as i have to do, i’m actually really enjoying my subject choices this year. so far at least. which is a good sign. AND i finally decided what subjects i’m going to do. like confirmed confirmed and i’m nt going to change my mind anymore and if i do, jing ting can have….all my bak gua XD

anyways, going off now, gbk has 2 for 1 burgers! how awesome is that??

ps : my blog is going to be pictureless for a bit cos i forgot to bring back my camera cable. smart.