confucious says, you con-fused?

“the law is confused”

to which i reply to dear mr hedley, author of a tort text book, that makes two of us. I AM BLOODY CONFUSED.

ok, maybe not bloody confused. but some what so. after reading and reading i only have some what of a picture of what the duty of care is abt. how the HELL am i going to sit for exams in 2 months i have no idea. and this is like one topic of half a paper, of which i have 5.

*sad, pitiful face*

anyywayyys, you knew i was going to whine and blog abt how sad my life is so here goes =)

exams are coming. again.

everytime i think abt tripos all the rainbows in my head disappear and are replaced with scary dark clouds. and lightning.

it HONESTLY really feels like just not long ago i was sitting for my 1st yr papers. and now, here i am, nearly at the end of 2nd year. so jiwangifying. makes me think about what i have accomplished thorughout the year, how i’ve grown/changed, how i’ve gotten to know people better, how the things happen for a reason, what i’ve learnt – about life, about people, about myself.

it is 2009. i’ll be graduating in a yr or so.

that is just so scary, not knowing what will happen to me after.

oh, oh, OH. today i went to the LIBRARY. yay me! i think libraries are good for me. for one, i actually work, evn if i still have an attention span of a goldfish, i get somethings done. ALSO, since there is nth to eat and i have no coins/too lazy to walk to the vending machine, i don’t eat random rubbish the whole day! as is the case when i stay in my room to work. its scary how you just keep eating to procrastinate. really.

so tmr, its back to the library agn.. more work done hopefully. its been 2 wks of hols already. omg. that is scary. can’t recall how i spent my days, except the first 4 days that was spent in italy travelling with my cell members. italy was awesomee. the sun, the gelato and the random posing. although i don’t think i could look at gelato and pasta for sometime to come..

here are some pics!

a group pic of all that went on top the 97.2 m tower that we CLIMBED.

meisheng, wanlin and i at the posh restaurant diane where we had our one’fine-dining’ dinner!

and here, the millionth time we were eating gelato..

and here with all our random drinks at the jazz bar we went to. <3 vodka + oj =)

trip was really fun. good times, getting to everyone better. also, i have decided to be more intellectual from hence forth. everyone says i’m a bimbo. which is kinda depressing if you ask me.  like totally! ok, i’m kidding. i don’t speak like that in real life. i will now only speak of things that matter, like poverty, the credit crunch and WORLD PEACE! haha.

i just realised how i didn’t blog abt anything i did throughout lent. except steal jing’s blog post. hee. will sometime soon post up loads of pics to attempt to potray how lent has been for me. was a trying term, let’s just put it that way. insane amt of sup work for us poor land economist (mad 6 sups a weeks = 6 essays. can’t believe i actually pulled that off), THAT paper 6 project, snow snow snow, snow fights in between lectures, snow fights in the middle of the night, meeting mahathir, co-producing our AWESOME m’night (which i kinda miss now. no more bugging kenrick and watching random practices..), halfway hall (emos), cny ball (still can’t believe i lost chinese chess to a less-than-sober person!), cumsa ball, relinquishing our cumas’s posts, random cookouts in my room, random shopping trips, humbling experience of internship hunting, being an emotional wreck and yet pretending everything’s okay, growing closer to some and then watch some drift away.

8 weeks. rollercoster indeed.

and i remain confused.

oh do you realise how katy perry’s ‘hot and cold’ song is perfect for the weather these days?

“you’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes (rain) and you’re no”

oh yes, you change your mind like a girl changes clothes alright.

work? word.

cny is coming! and oh the skies and grey.

what extreme juxtapositions.

feeling particularly emofied today. i think its the weather *glares at grey clouds and rain* and also the fact that i need, need, need to start writing essays today. and also the fact that i’m worried abt vac schemes. sigh. so lame.

but aniwaehs! i shall plunge head first into my pile of work with a smile on my face *plasters forced fake smile* just beacuse. a happy worker is a good worker! (ok, i made that up, but it sounded cool right?)

actually i think i’m just rambling abt nonsense right now and should stop, but i can’t! I JUST CAN’T..

so, its 8.07 am on a friday which i don’t have lectures to attend. tell me again why i’m awake when i could be curled up under my duvet asleep? boo =(

so, lets evaluate my week. sunday was mad day, involving much bitchiness, hate and pain. yes, last day to finish my p6 project and last last minute when i thought i was all done, i spotted a mistake. a fundamental, core part of the project so had to change almost everything. nearly died. and felt like tossing my mac out the window cos it was being bitchy with me. hmph.

that was sunday, barely slept and somehow had the energy to roll out of bed for my 10 am lecture. and to hand in (finally!) my project. then after lectures was shopping! got this lovely jacket tht was cheap too! made me very happyyyy.

tuesday, was watching frost/nixon with jings, nicks and harold since jings was very ‘resourceful’ (to quote many) and gt us free tickets! i love free things! =) so even though i had no idea what the movie was about, neither was it one of my must-watch-shows (SHOPAHOLIC!! HAVE. TO. WATCH.) i happily trooped down to grafton in the cold to catch the free movie. and at the end of it, i still didn’t know what the watergate scandal was -_- but now i do! thanks to go old wiki!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Watergate_scandal

other than that, my days have involved much staring into space wondering what i should do with my life and attempting to do some reading. and i will get a decent amount of work done today. no being stupid and wasting time. study study study. supervisions, here i come prepared!

yes, at least i have smth (s) to look forward to – cumas cny dinner, cny eve cookout, cny ball. oooh so happening huh? =)

balancing balance sheets.

woohoo!

i’m so happy that i managed to balance my balance sheets/trial balance and match that with my profit-loss account!

haha.

actually, this is nth to be proud of because in reality, balance sheets should balance all the time.

its just that i suck at balancing balance sheets, and this is THE FIRST time i’ve done so without any help!

yay!

was so happy that my balance sheets balanced (love saying that), that i was smiling the whole way through my 3 hour long accounting and data evaluation paper.

people arnd me must have thought i was nuts.

ooh well.

so now, i’ve done TWO papers, got accounting and stats out of the way (which, was my biggest fear, told you the little ppl don’t like numbers! and i know i have let down the whole asian race. and for that, i am truly sorry. but me and numbers don’t go. how ironic it is that my mum is a math teacher, and my math skills are limited to converting pounds into ringgit. whichdoesn’treallyhappenalotnowbutmovingon..)

tmr its consti.

hopefully it’ll be fine.

i just got to mug, mug, MUG and memorize the cases.

and of course the ‘points’.

anyways, the weather today is funny.

its so windy, and cold.

like. almost winter cold.

had to dig out my winter coat agn.

global warming i tell you.

the weather is more unpredictable then a pms-ey girl’s moodswings.

seriously.

oh, and i just realised how much of a pig sty my room is right now.

i shall spare the details and graphic pictures of how clothes are strewn arnd and the floor littered with books and files. random cups and empty bottles all over the place and my shoes crowding the entrance because i am “too busy” to put them back on the shoe rack.

=)

so much for sparing the details huh?

oohkayys, i shall get back to my bed and my consti notes.

my head feels to heavy, i can’t sit upright and study.

uhuh.

its true.

*nods solemnly*

fine, i’m just lazy.

i lyk lying down.

how i wish i could lie down, sleep and not have to wake up until i really can’t sleep anymore.

guess that’s not going to happen in the next two days!

so, here’s to the final half of my exams!

(and to sleeping in the next few days after! XD)

living in a sauna

good grief it is warm in the uk!

and i know what you are going to say abt how much hotter it is in malaysia.

BUT, in malaysia there is AIRCON and FAN – smth i don’t have here at all!

gosh.

and also in msia you chauffeur yourself arnd in an aircon-ed car while here i have to walk/cycle everywhere.

ugh.

hothothothothot.

my room is seriously insane, especially when the afternoon sun shines in.

seriously. its the kind of cannot tahan msia hot.

without aircon!

i NEED a fan-like thing.

ok, i’m probably sounding like this whiny annoying little girl..but its true!

come back please, winter.

i’m sorry i complained abt you in december.

i’m telling you, this is the effect of global warming.

grr.

according to the stern review, if increases in carbon emissions continue the way its going now, by 2016 the world’s temperature could increase by 5-10 degrees.

imagine that.

so.hot.so.hot.so.hot.

to only good thing is, i can blame my lack of concentration to the fact that the heat is melting my brain.

=)

oh, and ji if you are reading this..(although i doubt you do, since you seem to be hidden and mugging in the lse library day and night, reading nonsensical law cases) HAPPY 22nd BDAY! have a good one =)

GAHH!! there’s a humongous bee in my room! helllppp!!